alrights.

updating my life again.

hahas.

okaay.

erm, start wif sat.

o, btw christmas 4 me nth much happen la…

i stayed at home the whole day. then go work.

lols.

then sat.

went out early tat day.

i got home quite late on fri.

tired so went sleep after switching off handphone.

then morning 11plus woke up.

saw limin’s invitation

to go out wif ruiyuan n his friend yeehern( this time correct spelling liao).

go vivo.

yeah.

dunno wat overcame me, but i agreed.

something tat i didnt regret. hahas.

alright.

story goes lyk this.

i was super late to meet limin at 7-11 bus stop.

then we were supposed to meet ruiyuan at eunos mrt station.

and yeehern too i think.

but yeehern late.

he coming from woodlands.

so we went vivo meet him.

we went candy empire.

limin bought a 99% cacao chocolates for ruiyuan.

she dared him to try. says it’s a christmas present.

hahas.

when yeehern finally reached, we went in search of..

Food! hahas.

after consulting the directory, we decided on long john’s.

whoa. vivo is big.

veri veri hard to find the dumb restaurant.

hahas. but somehow managed to too.

eat there.

and tok lor.

n we showed each other our ic n ezlink.

4 the 4tos la. lols.

then went pet safari.

then debate where to go next.

i got work tat day. cotton on.

6.30pm.

so then after debating 4 a long time, they company me go anchorpoint.

yeah. thnx(:

n we went my store.

the baby section.

yeah.

it’s lyk this time more familiar wif each other.

so nt so awkward liao.

yeah.

dunno la.

tat day okaay.

i felt quite happy.

but actually this sat want to go cycle wif them oso de.

but lyk somethings happen.

make things alot more complicated.

although it really didnt involve me n limin.

so.. c how bahx.

i dunno.

anyway, gonna go work soon le.

gtg.

bb.

ppl takecares pls.

n we’ll c each other soon(:

happy always!

-yIzEn-

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE(:

fnally it’s here! hahas

alrights. gonna update abt my life recently.

hmmm.

start from wed bahx.

23 dec.

tat day, group outing.

ppl went were me, limin, xiuyi, leonard, kokchun n jecsen.

outing officially organised by oonie.

okaay.

destination: kallang leisure park.

timing: meet 11am, but me n limin late…

original ppl going: includes zixin de. but tat queen nv woke up on time!

haix. then ask her to join us ltr, she oso dun want. haix.

okaay, nvm.

then went ICE SKATING!

but b4 tat went eat 1st of course. hahas.

let me tell u abt my feelings towards ice skating.

COOL, FUN, WHOA, NICE(:

yeah.

i think it’s better than roller blading..

sorry limin. hahas.

but it’s easier to move. lols.

when roller blading, i cant move 4ward.

but ice skate? so much easier. coz slippery ground ma. hahas.

okaay.  basically juz sakte veri nicely.

although managed to fell twice. hahas.

but nv fall then nt 1st time liao ma. rite? hahas

i recommend everyone shld go try.

u’ll lyk it. lols.

everything tat happened tat day oso those ppl hu went noes.

so if really tat interested, can go ask them.

coz somethings veri paisei to write here myself. hahas.

but then tat day oso my 1st day start at cotton on.

6.30pm.

i was late.

damn it.

bcoz of bus 195 arriving lyk 3 yrs ltr.

lols.

but siti dint scold me la.

ya.

then i went in, after put my bag, i was asked to rack up the baby section.

the baby table was damn messy man.

lols.

but all the baby size tshirts can make something in you calm.

coz i reach the shop in a state of panic ma.

but when i began arranging and folding the baby clothings,i immediately felt better. hahas.

yeah.

then tat 1st day, after work, went eat mac wif khalisa n michael.

then anyhow take bus from the wrong side of the bus stop.

n got lost. highway behind us somemore.

lols.

but in the end somehow got home la.

12.30am.

hahas. even though my shift ended 10.30pm. lols

alrights.

then yest.

hahas.

went watch avatar 3d wif strangers, except 4 limin of course. hahas.

actually is limin’s friend, ruiyuan.

they met when we worked at conrad.

then say want watch.

then i anyhow say i oso want watch sia.

then somehow, settled. lols.

so went wif her lor.

he brought along 2 friends.

both guys, duh.

one called yihng (nt sure if spelling correct nt). the other dunno. coz he didnt intro.

yeah.

hahas.

avatar was veri veri nice.

i’m sure even without the 3d effects oso nice de.

but the effects nt tat much la.

but i love the movie man. hahas.

recommended to go watch(:

yeah.

after movie, went mac.

all the while tat ruiyuan wanted to treat us.

movie n the mac meal.

but we dun want la.

n wif limin there, she managed to sai all the money to him. hahas.

but thnx 4 the gentleman-ness. hard to find sia, nowadays. hahas.

then we went off.

i got cotton on work n limin attending a funeral.

ya.

really work at cotton on is veri qing song de

but nt as much as hotel waitressing la.

mayb it’s bcoz of the fact tat our store lack of male species?

hahas.

anyway, gotta go.

got work today too.

double pay! hahas(:

bb.

takecares ppl(:

-yIzEn-

Baby are you down
 
You ouaght to know,  
Tonight is the night to let it go,  
Put on a show,  
I wanna see how you lose control,  
So leave it behind cause we have a night to get away,  
So come on fly with me as we make our great escape,  
 
[Chorus:]  
So baby don’t worry you were my only  
You won’t be lonely  
Even if the sky is falling down  
You’d be my only no need to worry  
Baby are you down down down down down,  
(Down, Down)  
Baby are you down down down down down,  
(Down, Down)  
Even if the sky is falling,  
 
Just let it be,  
Come on bring your body next to me,  
I’ll take you away,  
Turn this place into our private getaway,  
So leave it behind because we have a night to get away,  
So come on fly with me as we make our great escape
 
[Chorus:]  
So baby don’t worry you were my only  
You won’t be lonely  
Even if the sky is falling down  
You’d be my only  
No need to worry  
Baby are you down down down down down,  
(Down, Down)  
Baby are you down down down down down,  
(Down, Down)  
Down  
 
Baby the sky is falling down 
Baby don’t worry you were my only  
You won’t be lonely  
Even if the sky is falling down  
You’d be my only no need to worry  
Baby are you down down down down down,  
Baby are you down down down down down,  
(Down down)  
Even if the sky is falling down,  
(Down down)  

If the sky is falling down.

alrights. it’s abt time i update my blog again.

anyway, u noe the song “Down” by Jay Sean feat. Lil Wayne previously.

now there’s this candlelight remix version. i posted above.

i think it’s really nice. hahas.

lyk really sweet sia, the song. lols.

anyway, got a few thoughts.

i think mayb this sunday gonna b the last time i work for the hotel waitressing job.

coz i heard today khalisa start work at cotton on le.

then i was suppose to start today oso.

but i told her cannot coz i alr booked today’s hotel waitressing job liao ma.

ya. then sunday de slot oso booked le.

all rasa de.

sat no slot tat’s y didnt book.

so i ask khalisa to help me ask the manager to slot in my name 4 tmr’s cotton on.

n sunday morning de, since sun’s rasa waitressing only starts at 5pm.

ya. if can, then good lor. if cannot, then i wont mind too. as long as mon start my shift at cotton on.

lols.

ya.

i wanna confess something.

i think i really gonna cannot stand working the hotel waitressing job le.

coz ever since TAT INCIDENT, i think i still got that 阴影.

i mean i did went to work a few times after the incident alr.

but u noe, it’s a really scary incident.

i mean, it’s really hard to get over 阴影s rite?

if u dont believe, can go try create one. lols.

yeah.

then every work days after tat, i got kind of stress.

over wondering the “ifs”.

watever. it may seems lyk me 自讨苦吃-ing. but trust me, it’s freaking hard to get over it.

n i hated feeling lyk mayb it’ll happen again.

kind of out of my control u noe? this freak out feeling.

lols.

hu lyks stress? but i cant seems to help it.

so….

probably bahx.

coz i noe i’ll confirm miss working wif limin, jecsen n kokchun de.

but…haix.

i’m sorry.

阴影s are really hard to get over…

ya.

okaay. off to happy stuff now.

i see that ppl nowadays all pretty much look 4ward to this year’s christmas huh? lols

okaay. nice season. lols.

we r gonna go out 23 dec, oonie planned. lols

ya. great.

juz hope i’ll b free that day. i’ll definitely take leave tat day if i got work la.

ya. c how then.

u noe rite, how humans always wanted things that they cant have?

same here. i guess everyone’s the same.

so here, i’m lyk wishing mayb wanna have those times back.

but watever, it most likely wont happen again…

lols.

okaay.

tues’ seoul garden was great.

yeah.

ppl went are me, limin, zixin, shera, jecsen n kokchun.

yeah. n some poor guy fell sick after tat. coz of eating too much! hahas.

but really. we 劝 him alr. lols.

he’s okaay alr though. coz i juz saw him yest. lols.

o, yest went oonie’s house made “sponge” cake. n play.

ppl went were me, limin, zhiqi, jecsen n kokchun.

okaay, nt bad. lols. though the cakes are pretty “spongy”.. lols.

n on wed, went library to borrow a few books then went pool.

went library wif limin n zixin n jecsen.

then me n jec go singpost meet boonhng n chinghai to go grandlink play pool.

chinghai’s pool skill is erm…. hahas.

alot of times lyk ch’s team winning, as in they only left one black ball.

then he was suppose to shoot it in. but the white ball oso went in.

so in the end, the other team won. lols.

ya. so today, no activity liao.

coz going to work ma. lols.

okaay, next pay day coming up. happy happy(:

wonder how’s kw n xr doing. will try to meet up wif them soon(:

so tat’s all.

bye(: takecares ppl(:

-yIzEn-

If a man could beat his own fancy
Then to only breed in captivity
is pointless
Ive been doing what I like when I like how I like its joyless
Only you know me
What a waste of all this peace ,
baby steps and two more sleeps
Till I get to say sorry
I get hysterical, historical; of love is just chemical
Give us something to stop me
Only you know me
Since you went away, my heart breaks everyday
You dont know cos youre not there
You simply found the words to make a lot of feelings fade away -or(our model feelings)
Only you know me
Im doin fine
And the sun often shines
What are you thinking?
At the worst of my mind
With this thunderbird wine
Baby, Im drinking
Only you know me
Since you went away, my heart breaks everyday
You dont know cos youre not there
You simply found the words to make a lot of feelings fade away-or(our model feelings)
Only you know me
Only you know me
Since you went away, my heart breaks everyday
You dont know cos youre not there
You simply found the words to make a lot of feelings fade away-or(our model feelings)
Only you know me
Only you know me
Only you
Only you
Only you know me

well, all’s more or less fine wif me liao.

o, jec, if u’re reading tis, iwant u to noe tat…

i HATE fighting wif u.. so we dont ever fight alr k?

thanks 4 everything though(:

n thanks limin, 4 everything too. Love ya lots!

i noe kc probably dint noe abt my blog, but nonetheless, thank you very much too.

thanks 4 all ur help(:

yeah. 2day, the 3 of them working.

i dint work coz no slot liao.

but tmr, all 4 of us working…haix.

sorry it’s all my fault, coz it’s i booked de…

haix.

okaay.

nowadays, nothing much lor.

waiting 4 cotton on to start.

rasa really great. lols.

o, recently learned skating.

haven really noe how yet.

hahas.

went wif limin, limin’s friend Leonard, jecsen, kc n zixin.

hard sia, 4 me.

kc learned really fast.. but watever. hahas.

had fun(:

erm… then….

i cant think of anything. seriously. hahas.

alright, then i shall end here. takecares everyone(:

hope to cya soon(:

bye.

-yIzEn-

fcuking stress nowadays.

due to the stupid job job thing.

as u might noe, now am stuck between jobs.

anchor point cotton on kids only opened at 16dec.

from today till then, i have ten days. completely free.

it’s not that i dont lyk to slack at home.

sure, hu dont lyk tat. but boredom does not equate to free.

n i told my mom abt starting on the 16.

then she was lyk nagging say lyk tat wait until sch reopen liao la. no need go work liao.

where got wait n wait de job de? then ltr they can say still dont have. wat if they ask u to wait until next yr? then u 4ever no need work liao rite? then everyday go out?!

wat the fish man.

then the solution is obvious ma.

continue do the hotel waitressing 1st lor.

but i still have dsiturbing dreams due to the INCIDENT.

seriously lost all my confidence in the job.

that aside, i need MONEY!

so then jec says helped me booked oso, 4 next week.

then, bad news.

alex, boss of impact, dont allow me to book.

coz i cancelled the recent fri, sat n sun shifts.

asking him to cancel one per day.

i noe it’s bad. but that’s bcoz i scare might clash wif cotton on the job ma.

haix.

so he said he’ll open the slots for the regulars 1st. then got leftover slot, then will give me.

there was no rule previously tat says cannot cancel 3 days straight lor.

only a rule tat says mst cancel 2 days b4 the working day. n i obeyed that.

WAT THE FCUK man.

then jec says juz call him lor, even though he said dont call.

he said most likely is bcoz alex scare ltr i cancel again.

but this time not gonna cancel de. but WATEVER.

sickening leh, this type of things.

i lyk rotting at home, then still have to listen to my mother bitching at home.

i seriously have no idea y she wants me to work everyday so badly.

her reason: u everyday go out. oso dunno where exactly u go(even though i got tell her). then better u go work. at least can earn money.

seriously. cannot take it soon.

haix haix haix haix.

dunno how oso.

it may seems lyk small small probs, but dunno y, to me, it’s very stressing.

i think o level not even so stress lor.

coz tat one is under my control de ma.

then working this sort of thing is nt i anyhow can decide de..

haix. sian leh. haix.

even if i can go work rasa hotel this wed, thurs n fri wif kc, jec n limin, i’m nt sure i’ll do a proper job.

if i spilled again, i think i’ll start crying.

really bad experience.

dont ever try it out. lols.

haix.

so…i’ll c how bahx.

shit thing. dumb job. stupid me.

haix.

kk, takecares ppl. rest well.

-yIzEn-

Buttons on my phone are worn thin
I don’t think that I knew the chaos I was getting in.
But I’ve broken all my promises to you
I’ve broken all my promises to you.

Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because
You make it hard to breathe
Why do you do this to me?

A frozen glance. A single tear,
Iis harder than I ever feared
And you were left feeling so alone.
Because these days aren’t easy
Like they have been once before
These days aren’t easy anymore.

Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because
You make it hard to breathe
Why do you do this to me?
To me, to me, to me…

I should’ve known this wasn’t real
And fought it off and fought to feel
What matters most? Everything
That you feel while listening to every word that I sing.
I promise you I will bring you home
I will bring you home.

Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because
You make it hard to breathe
Why do you do this to me?

Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because
You make it hard to breathe
Why do you do this to me?
To me, to me, to me…